verb
agonize
AG-uh-nyze/ˈæɡənaɪz/
To experience or cause intense pain or distress.
She agonizes over whether to accept the distant job offer.

Etymology
Greek agōnizesthai meant to contend in a struggle. English agonize moved from inflicting torment to suffering extreme physical pain, and then to intense mental worry.
In context
most women who have abortions you think there's something they want you think they don't agonize over that you think they don't sit there and cry about it and think about it
More examples
- He agonized for weeks before selling the family home.
- The uncertainty continued to agonize the waiting families.
- They are agonizing over a decision with no easy answer.
Forms
agonize · agonizes · agonized · agonizing
agony noun — Intense physical pain or mental distress.