adjective
hideous
HID-ee-us/ˈhɪdiəs/
Extremely unpleasant to see or experience.
The hideous pile of rotting food attracts flies.

Etymology
Old French hideus emphasized horror and fright. The meaning broadened from what terrifies to what repels, connecting extreme ugliness or unpleasantness with a strong reaction of dread or disgust.
In context
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