verb
loathe
LOHTH/ləʊð/
To feel intense dislike or disgust toward.
The gardener loathes the litter scattered across the flower bed.
Etymology
Old English laðian meant to be hateful or displeasing. The modern meaning reverses the perspective: to loathe something is to feel the hatred or disgust, rather than cause it.
In context
if you hate your self you can't be your self you can't be someone you hate you can't be something you loathe